So far, so good. I’ve thought a number of times about what to say at this point. It’s all become pretty ordinary now. Weight is stable, not losing, not gaining. Energy level is stable. Not great, nowhere close to what it used to be, but it’s the new normal. Fatigue is a constant companion. I have bursts of energy, mainly in am. By about 2 pm, I’m bushed. By 5pm, my brain is in mush-mode, I can’t think, and efforts to do so make me want to cry. The brain fatigue is often worse than the physical fatigue.
The main gastrointestinal symptom is diarrhea. I’ve learned to manage, through trial and error. Nausea is pretty much gone. As long as I eat many small meals – snacks – and not fill my stomach, diarrhea is much less common. I now know the locations of restrooms at most stores, and the back-up and back-up back-up restrooms at work, for those occasions when I err, or my body wants to surprise me.
The perfect meal/snack is a small egg burrito, using a flour or corn/flour tortilla, 1/3 of a scrambled egg, a little salsa, and a little shredded cheddar. Eating several of those through the morning, not trying to be full, diarrhea is much less common. Tea – usually Tazo or other brand of chai tea, which contains cinnamon, ginger, clove, and adding a little bit of unpasteurized honey – more flavor with less sugar – several cups a day replacing most of my coffee – is really soothing. I limit acid foods but do have some OJ, smaller amount daily than in the past. High sugar – cake, pie, cookie – brings on the dumping syndrome. Big meal does the same. High fat does the same. This forces me to eat healthy even when stressed.
I take the Gleevec in the pm. Since I always carry an I-pad, I use the alarm on the device to remind me. It’s hard to remember to take pills in the pm, but this way I never fail. The good thing about using I-pad is I can set the alarm to any downloaded music. I use thunderstorms, or rain forest sounds, or waterfalls, so the reminder is soothing, not jarring. It’s hard to wake up in the am, much harder than before cancer. So I use the same alarm system as for the pills.
Photo is at the Holland Bulb farms last month, not far from my town.
I don’t know that B12 supplement is helping me. I need to check the level. No one – surgery, oncology, or primary care, caught that a Billroth-II probably guarantees a B12 deficiency. I should have known better, myself. If it was one of my patients, instead of me, I think I would have known. Same as gastric bypass patients. I use the sub-lingual B12, 2,000 mcg daily. There are studies stating sublingual is not better than swallowed oral tab. However, that is with intact stomach. Which I don’t have. Sublingual is just as easy, and can be bought inexpensively by waiting for Safeway or Kroger 2 for 1 coupon days.
The health plan is missing the boat on the cost of Gleevec. It’s about $21,000 for a 3 month supply. That’s $88,000 a year. If they would send me to Canada with an Rx, it costs $11,000 for a 3 month supply, or $1,600 for the generic. via website Canadadrugs.com. Imatinib 400mg (generic equivalent to Gleevec) Manufactured by: Teva Pharma This product is offered for sale by Canada Drugs LP of Canada USD – $17.74 USD/tablet. My math may be off, but I think it’s a massive savings over buying it here. That’s $7,000 a year instead of $88,000 a year.
As it is, my oncologist seems to think I’d be happy to stop it for a while and see if fatigue is better. While my surgical oncologist tells me, if it was him, he would take it for life. Maybe there is a regulation that prevents this, I don’t know. But when the time comes that the health plan cuts me off, I think I’ll look into the options.
But for now, the status quo is tolerable. I continue to work. The work schedule can be grueling, but I rest the next day or weekend. It could be much worse.
I weigh about 30# less than before cancer. People compliment me, “You’re so healthy! How did you do it?”. I usually just say I was sick. Inside, I want to say “Cancer”. But I don’t.
With surgery and medication, I have a reprieve. I don’t know for how long. One day at a time.
The new normal is OK.